K’uychi [Kwee-chee]: How I was Renamed After The Incan Rainbow Goddess
Some terms that may be helpful to know before diving into this poem:
Pachamama - Mother Earth
Inti - The Incan Sun God
quewa - Two-Spirit
Chaski - messenger
The rains roll in
We despair we may drown
So we anchor onto Pachamama
The deluge simmers into a mist
And Inti shines his rays onto us as refuge
His light sheds wisdom through the prism of our tears
Inti reflects the divinity and infinity held within each raindrop we shed
K’uychi
Radiant energy that mirrors
Our divine connection to Spirit
You see her and immediately grin - for this
Goddess has emerged to
Bless and remind you that you were made in God’s
Image - and when you bask in her energy you are gifted with a renewed sense of
Vitality
K’uychi
Rooted into an ancestral lineage of resilience
Observing the emotions and wisdom that rise with the tides of my moon cycle
Your center of power - a gift you forgot you possessed - a
Gentle heart
Born to roar
Illuminating sacred visions
Vividly sourced from Spirit directly into your Crown
K’uychi
Remembering the spilt blood of my ancestors
Owning the fire within me that was extinguished within them
Yearning to lay sunflowers on their forgotten tombs
Great grandmothers whose spirits dwell within Eucalyptus trees
Baptizing myself in my ancestral waters at
Isla del Sol - dreaming of our heavenly reunion sipping on chalices of
Vinito made by my grandmother’s hands
K’uychi
Rummaging through ancestral memory wondering was I really the
Only one or the first one to be out? No way.
You’re what?!
Gay.
But you’re pretty, and wear makeup, and [used to] date boys!
I just don’t understand
Vast oceans of shame and disgust barely contained behind a dam of screeching silent
disapproval
K’uychi
Rage burning through my veins for all
Of the ancestors who couldn’t live in their authentic truth
Yelling and wailing til we’re seen, heard, held, loved
Grieving for all who needed to be nurtured
Black, Brown
Indigenous Trancestors - who paved the way - whose
Valiant spirits SURGE through us - we remember you, we honor you, we love you
K’uychi
Trial by fire
The ancestors came calling
They asked for a sacrifice - a death
The death of who I thought I was
They shaved my head bald and cradled me as I wept
And revealed the true essence of who I’ve always been
Infinite and glorious like K’uychi
A delicate balance of the divine feminine and masculine
A quewa, Two-Spirit messenger sent to heal
So they held me as I gave birth to my true self and baptized me as
Chaski K’uychi
Messenger of the Rainbow Goddess
K’uychi